Most of us were deprived of something as children, whether due to negligence, accident, or just ignorance. Many of us decide to have children so we can give them the things we missed, but we often forget that our younger selves still live inside of us. Even as adults, we continue to desperately reach out to the same people that deprived us as children for some sort of fulfillment, only to be disappointed once again. It was only recently that I realized that once you become an adult, it's
your responsibility to protect and nurture the child within you.
My mother was raised to believe that you would achieve completion if you were loved and financially supported by a man - and she passed that token of advice onto me. I started dating at age 13 to appease my mother, as well as to fill the hole in my heart that was created by the absence of a father and growing up in severe poverty. I became a "serial monogamist", dating one man after another, until I found a real jewel who proposed to me a week before my college graduation. He then accumulated $15,000 worth of credit card debt in my...
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The Christmas present I came out to this morning:
They didn't leave a note. Since the car is 12 years old, I don't have collision, so my insurance will not cover the damages. Ironically someone smashed the other side 2 years ago and drove off, so now at least it matches. I suppose symmetry is beauty.
Yanno, I just wrote a several page long post outlining my thoughts, anxieties, and general ranting about various items that have been stolen from me over the last few years. Now that I feel better having loudly banged that out on the keyboard, I've deleted it all to spare you the details. I leave you with this:
I refuse to play be a victim here.
I'm thankful for my health since I was not *in* the car when it was hit, so now I am going to work towards fixing this situation. As for the Honda, I'm going to donate it to charity - most places can accept totaled vehicles for parts. But I'm in a little trouble because I need something to get around since I am sort of on the road for a living.
Okay, options...options..
Option...
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As if overhearing my talk of the "
12 Days of Sexmas" posts,
TMZ launched an article today about "
Man Made Holiday Sweaters". Iwas too grossed out to go through all the images, but if you like 'em fuzzy, click the image below to play "Guess the Chest".
Thanks to Elizabeth H. for tipping me off about the teats!
Every time I visit my mother, I can't help but notice the aging picture on her bedroom door of some random shirtless guy with a mullet. For some weird reason, she tore the photo out from one of those "Sexy Guy" Calendars and scotched taped it to her door, right next to where she used to hang my school report cards. I vaguely remember Anyu getting this calendar as a gift from someone when I was in grade school, so it has to be
over 15 years old.
"Anyu, I think you need to update your calendar photo. Do you want me to take down Rico Suave over here?"
"NO, VAY! I like dat picture! You can't get good sexy guy pictures like dis anymore."
"What are you talking about? They have Sexy Guy Calendars EVERYWHERE around Christmas."
"No no. All dah guys dese are covered dah oils and don't gave a hair on their body. Dey look like GIRLS!"
"Oh, right, I forgot. You like the kind of guy that has chest hair you can braid."
"Dat vas the style in my time. You know vhat, for Christmas, you find me a sexy new man."
"Uh, are...
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7:03pm The doors are open, and folks are starting to gather. Stephanie Yuhas has some really stellar secret objects she’s auctioning off.
http://www.shinygrape.com/americangoulash/
She’s raising money to cover the cost of her camera that was stolen during a
ProjectTwenty1 event. Help her out!
Michael M. Koehler and I are talking fishing in Philly and New York.
http://www.michaelmkoehler.com/
7:38 We’re now underway at the Salon. Vicki’s reminding everyone that we’re still seeking artists for the salons this year. You can download an application at http://salons.firstpersonarts.org
And you better believe we’re talking about Edible World: Joe Sixpack’s Northern Liberties. It’s happening this weekend! http://edibleworld.firstpersonarts.org
7:45 Sarah McEneaney is first, talking about her extraordinary opus. She’s spent quite a bit of time in that western arts mecca Marfa, Texas. Fascinating use of self-portraits. Her paintings appear in her other paintings, creating a uniquely compiled memoir.
Her work is funny and poignant. Chronicling her time as a clinic defense volunteer in Center City. Especially given the recent killing of...
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